Venting

I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm heartbroken. Why did this have to happen to Bailey? She is such a good dog - so sweet to others...always wagging her tail. She's submissive to other dogs regardless of their size. She follows me from room to room and brightens my every day. I know it's part of life and I know Bailey has had a great 10 years and I know I should cherish every second I have left. I understand all of this, but it does not stop the pain. I promised myself yesterday that I would not cry anymore - that I would turn my energy toward positive things. That promise lasted less than 18 hours. I'm not writing this for pity - I just needed to vent....I feel so helpless. Why, God, WHY my Bailey girl?? I'm so angry with you right now.