I love this picture of Jasper and Basil snuggling for the first time. What I love even more...the rainbow reflected on the tile/cabinet...a sure sign that Bailey and Bocci are near. It's as if all four girls are together. :)
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
A Pet's Ten Commandments
In honor of Bocci - can't believe it has already been 1 month. I miss you tons!
A Pet's Ten Commandments
1. My life is likely to last 10-15 years. Any separation from you is probably going to be painful.
2. Give me time to understand what you want of me.
3. Place your trust in me. It is crucial for my well-being.
4. Don't be angry with me for long and don't lock me up as punishment. You have your work, your friends, your entertainment, but I have only you.
5. Talk to me. Even if I don't understand your words, I do understand your voice when speaking to me.
6. Be aware that however you treat me, I will never forget it.
7. Before you hit me, before you strike me, remember that I could hurt you, and yet, I choose not to bite you.
8. Before you scold me for being lazy or uncooperative, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right food, I have been in the sun too long, or my heart might be getting old or weak.
9. Please take care of me when I grow old. You too, will grow old.
10. On the ultimate difficult journey, go with me please. Never say you can't bear to watch. Don't make me face this alone. Everything is easier for me if you are there, because I love you so.
A Pet's Ten Commandments
1. My life is likely to last 10-15 years. Any separation from you is probably going to be painful.
2. Give me time to understand what you want of me.
3. Place your trust in me. It is crucial for my well-being.
4. Don't be angry with me for long and don't lock me up as punishment. You have your work, your friends, your entertainment, but I have only you.
5. Talk to me. Even if I don't understand your words, I do understand your voice when speaking to me.
6. Be aware that however you treat me, I will never forget it.
7. Before you hit me, before you strike me, remember that I could hurt you, and yet, I choose not to bite you.
8. Before you scold me for being lazy or uncooperative, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right food, I have been in the sun too long, or my heart might be getting old or weak.
9. Please take care of me when I grow old. You too, will grow old.
10. On the ultimate difficult journey, go with me please. Never say you can't bear to watch. Don't make me face this alone. Everything is easier for me if you are there, because I love you so.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Happy Thanksgiving
Hard to believe Bocci has been gone almost three weeks and today marks 13 months for Bailey. Where does time go?
With Thanksgiving around the corner, I figured it's a good time to take note of the things I am thankful for (in no special order):
1. My caring husband and family - they put up with me after all!
2. Basil Baby
3. The presence of my folks - I feel blessed that they are 80 and still gracing this earth.
4. Minesweeper - love that game
5. My Blackberry - I am addicted
6. Desserts - need I say more? Yes, MORE desserts please!
7. My awesome friends
8. Snowmen - they always make me smile. Especially when I go into Home Depot and see the big, gigantic blow up Snowmen...now THAT makes me grin from ear to ear.
9. Our new home - I've had so much fun decorating and adding personal touches.
10. Pumpkin Spiced Lattes - YUM!
Happy Thanksgiving All!
With Thanksgiving around the corner, I figured it's a good time to take note of the things I am thankful for (in no special order):
1. My caring husband and family - they put up with me after all!
2. Basil Baby
3. The presence of my folks - I feel blessed that they are 80 and still gracing this earth.
4. Minesweeper - love that game
5. My Blackberry - I am addicted
6. Desserts - need I say more? Yes, MORE desserts please!
7. My awesome friends
8. Snowmen - they always make me smile. Especially when I go into Home Depot and see the big, gigantic blow up Snowmen...now THAT makes me grin from ear to ear.
9. Our new home - I've had so much fun decorating and adding personal touches.
10. Pumpkin Spiced Lattes - YUM!
Happy Thanksgiving All!
Monday, November 8, 2010
Thank you
Thank you for the many thoughtful notes on the loss of Bocci. We all lose loved ones and it's comforting to know that friends are near for support.
It seems unreal that two weeks ago Bocci was healthy (as far as I knew) and thriving well for a 13 year old. Now she is gone and the house isn't the same. I have been beating myself up thinking that maybe there was more I could have done. It's crossed my mind a million times that I may have given up on Bocci before she gave up on me. I wanted to find that one slice of time that was not a moment too soon or a moment too late to let her go.
Bocci's absence has taken a toll on Basil. Many have noticed that she is not as perky and social. I know she misses her big sister who was also a pseudo mom.
The vet called this morning and Bocci's ashes are ready to be picked up. While I dread making that drive, it will be nice to have her here next to Bailey.
Thank you again for all of the warm emails and notes. Here is a snapshot of Bocci from 10 days ago...standing beside the fridge begging for a treat. :)
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Rest in Peace Sweet Bocci
Our sweet Bocci Girl was laid to rest today at 2pm. This ordeal - albeit 10 days - has been pure torture. She was doing so good in the mind and maintained her daily routine of begging for treats with long naps in-between. Unfortunately, the mass was not cooperating and bleeding more each day.
I went back and forth all week on what to do...I kept thinking, "if I found her in pain, I would make the call." That would have been the easy (selfish) way out. Having been through this with Bailey, I didn't want Bocci to get to the point of severe pain and agony - yet, I wanted her to be with me for as long as possible. To think that your beloved animal's life is in your hands in not empowering...it is devastating. I asked God to give me a sign and early this afternoon, he did just that. I knew it was time and I put Bocci in the car. We stopped at McDonald's on the way to get her a Quarter Pounder and French Fries. She enjoyed every bite.
In the end, I wanted her to go with dignity and grace - just as she lived her life. The past few hours I have experienced the many stages of grief and now, I'm back at the first of denial. It just doesn't seem real. I keep thinking she is going to waltz into the bedroom and summon me to the kitchen for her late night snack.
Bocci was such a wonderful companion. She was loyal, patient, loving and funny. She blessed my life for 13 years and I already miss her terribly. She rarely asked for much (except treats) and happily lived in the shadows of Bailey and Basil. She seemed to find joy in their quirkiness and was content just being here. My heart just aches, someone please wake me from this horrible nightmare.
I love you so much, Bocci. I pray that you have found Bailey and that the two of you are running in the fields. Thank you for all the joy that you have brought to my life.
I went back and forth all week on what to do...I kept thinking, "if I found her in pain, I would make the call." That would have been the easy (selfish) way out. Having been through this with Bailey, I didn't want Bocci to get to the point of severe pain and agony - yet, I wanted her to be with me for as long as possible. To think that your beloved animal's life is in your hands in not empowering...it is devastating. I asked God to give me a sign and early this afternoon, he did just that. I knew it was time and I put Bocci in the car. We stopped at McDonald's on the way to get her a Quarter Pounder and French Fries. She enjoyed every bite.
In the end, I wanted her to go with dignity and grace - just as she lived her life. The past few hours I have experienced the many stages of grief and now, I'm back at the first of denial. It just doesn't seem real. I keep thinking she is going to waltz into the bedroom and summon me to the kitchen for her late night snack.
Bocci was such a wonderful companion. She was loyal, patient, loving and funny. She blessed my life for 13 years and I already miss her terribly. She rarely asked for much (except treats) and happily lived in the shadows of Bailey and Basil. She seemed to find joy in their quirkiness and was content just being here. My heart just aches, someone please wake me from this horrible nightmare.
I love you so much, Bocci. I pray that you have found Bailey and that the two of you are running in the fields. Thank you for all the joy that you have brought to my life.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Update on Bocci
Thankfully, Bocci is still with us and feeling good. We brought her home from the ER Vet on Tuesday and have been giving her tons of TLC. She has a large, open mass near her anus (hate that word) that is not pretty. The sore bleeds at times, but we're able to keep it minimized with cold packs and powder from Petsmart.
I took her back to the vet on Friday and was told that if we can manage the sore, Bocci could be with us for some time. Since the meds were making her sick, we stopped all but the Tramadol (2x per day). She has been fabulous ever since and getting back to her old self. Ultimately, we know the cancer is growing, but since she is not in pain and her quality of life has not changed, we are going to cherish the time we have left. Having been down this path with Bailey, we opted to forgo surgery, chemo, etc. If it gets to the point where she is suffering, we will make the dreaded call. Until then, she is getting all sorts of treats and loving every bite.
One side note, Basil has been so good! I was worried about her pouncing/picking on Bocci like she has for the past year, but Basil must have a 6th sense and knows to leave Bocci alone.
Thanks again for all of the prayers and support!
I took her back to the vet on Friday and was told that if we can manage the sore, Bocci could be with us for some time. Since the meds were making her sick, we stopped all but the Tramadol (2x per day). She has been fabulous ever since and getting back to her old self. Ultimately, we know the cancer is growing, but since she is not in pain and her quality of life has not changed, we are going to cherish the time we have left. Having been down this path with Bailey, we opted to forgo surgery, chemo, etc. If it gets to the point where she is suffering, we will make the dreaded call. Until then, she is getting all sorts of treats and loving every bite.
One side note, Basil has been so good! I was worried about her pouncing/picking on Bocci like she has for the past year, but Basil must have a 6th sense and knows to leave Bocci alone.
Thanks again for all of the prayers and support!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Bocci - keep her in your prayers
We learned last night that Bocci has an aggressive form of cancer - likely hemangiosarcoma. What is it with this cancer?? Why can't it leave my family alone??
She was bleeding from the rear so Joe took her to the vet hoping it was a simple diagnosis. Unfortunately, she has a large mass that has ruptured and a few others in the same area. The vet shared that when a mass of this size ruptures, the cancer has likely spread to major organs. They were able to get the bleeding to stop, so now it's a waiting game. The worst kind. The mass could rupture again tomorrow or we could get lucky and it could take weeks. Because of her age, we are opting not to do xrays and chemo. One of the hardest parts is knowing what steps to take and when - especially when her mind is great and her demeanor even better.
I just don't get it. Bocci has been doing so good....full of energy and even a bit sassy with demanding more and more treats.
I'm out of town for work and taking the first flight home this morning. If you have a beloved pet, give them an extra hug because you just don't know what tomorrow will bring.
She was bleeding from the rear so Joe took her to the vet hoping it was a simple diagnosis. Unfortunately, she has a large mass that has ruptured and a few others in the same area. The vet shared that when a mass of this size ruptures, the cancer has likely spread to major organs. They were able to get the bleeding to stop, so now it's a waiting game. The worst kind. The mass could rupture again tomorrow or we could get lucky and it could take weeks. Because of her age, we are opting not to do xrays and chemo. One of the hardest parts is knowing what steps to take and when - especially when her mind is great and her demeanor even better.
I just don't get it. Bocci has been doing so good....full of energy and even a bit sassy with demanding more and more treats.
I'm out of town for work and taking the first flight home this morning. If you have a beloved pet, give them an extra hug because you just don't know what tomorrow will bring.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
One Year
It just doesn't seem real - that a whole year has disappeared.
Why is it that the "firsts" always get to us? The first month, the first Christmas, the first birthday...the first anniversary. I suppose one way of coping is to mark the milestones and to morn a little deeper on those days so that the days in-between can be a bit easier.
We woke this morning and watched a ton of Bailey videos. I started with the most recent - about 2 days before she passed and worked myself backward to the videos before she fell ill. I wanted to end with happy thoughts and remember the world as it was when Bailey was full of life and healthy.
This afternoon, we hiked with Basil to Bailey's spot on the mountain near our house. It is here that I spent many moments going through the stages of grief. A few short hours after Bailey passed, I hiked up this mountain and found a special spot off the beaten track where I could come to escape. I placed a picture of us under a big rock to protect it from the weather and animals. Over the past year, Mother Nature and the animals have swiped little trinkets left for Bailey. Two things still remain, a cheesy butterfly glow stick and our picture ~ albeit a bit warn from the sun and rain. I cracked a smile today noticing that a sliver of Bailey's hair is still submerged in the frame.
It's amazing that a four-legged creature could capture our hearts like Bailey did. I miss her as much today as the day she left. I hope she knows how much she was and is loved.
XOXO Bailey ~ I love you.
Picture from our visit to Bailey's spot 10/23/10
Why is it that the "firsts" always get to us? The first month, the first Christmas, the first birthday...the first anniversary. I suppose one way of coping is to mark the milestones and to morn a little deeper on those days so that the days in-between can be a bit easier.
We woke this morning and watched a ton of Bailey videos. I started with the most recent - about 2 days before she passed and worked myself backward to the videos before she fell ill. I wanted to end with happy thoughts and remember the world as it was when Bailey was full of life and healthy.
This afternoon, we hiked with Basil to Bailey's spot on the mountain near our house. It is here that I spent many moments going through the stages of grief. A few short hours after Bailey passed, I hiked up this mountain and found a special spot off the beaten track where I could come to escape. I placed a picture of us under a big rock to protect it from the weather and animals. Over the past year, Mother Nature and the animals have swiped little trinkets left for Bailey. Two things still remain, a cheesy butterfly glow stick and our picture ~ albeit a bit warn from the sun and rain. I cracked a smile today noticing that a sliver of Bailey's hair is still submerged in the frame.
It's amazing that a four-legged creature could capture our hearts like Bailey did. I miss her as much today as the day she left. I hope she knows how much she was and is loved.
XOXO Bailey ~ I love you.
Picture from our visit to Bailey's spot 10/23/10
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Important Warning for Doggie Parents
Month Eleven...where does time go....missing you Bailey girl - as much now as ever. I wish you were here. Damn you Cancer for taking her away.
Xylitol - A Silent Dog Killer
I wanted to share an important note about a sugar substitute that can be very deadly to dogs. I recently learned of this when a friend of a friend lost her German Shepherd from eating sugar free gum that contained Xylitol. Xylitol is found in many popular diet foods, pudding, muffins, gum and even toothpaste. From what I have read, it doesn't take much or a long period of time (as little as a few sticks of gum) for dogs to drop over. Here is a link to some additional information. If you have four legged pups around, be sure to keep this very deadly ingredient away.
Happy Birthday
On a lighter note, we had a fun birthday party for Basil and Bocci last week. I know...I can hear all of you now...a birthday party for a DOG??? Yep - two dogs in fact! With Bocci turning 13 and Basil hitting 1 we just had to celebrate. Helping the matter was some cool plates I found with a Golden wearing a birthday hat and cool shades. 
Xylitol - A Silent Dog Killer
I wanted to share an important note about a sugar substitute that can be very deadly to dogs. I recently learned of this when a friend of a friend lost her German Shepherd from eating sugar free gum that contained Xylitol. Xylitol is found in many popular diet foods, pudding, muffins, gum and even toothpaste. From what I have read, it doesn't take much or a long period of time (as little as a few sticks of gum) for dogs to drop over. Here is a link to some additional information. If you have four legged pups around, be sure to keep this very deadly ingredient away.
Happy Birthday
On a lighter note, we had a fun birthday party for Basil and Bocci last week. I know...I can hear all of you now...a birthday party for a DOG??? Yep - two dogs in fact! With Bocci turning 13 and Basil hitting 1 we just had to celebrate. Helping the matter was some cool plates I found with a Golden wearing a birthday hat and cool shades.
Baileyism
I love that Bailey could not catch to save her life. I thought of it today when throwing Bocci a piece of popcorn. Of course, Bocci caught it mid air like a true pro, but not Bailey. She would have done this counterclockwise circle thing with her head and missed completely. Love her!
I love that Bailey could not catch to save her life. I thought of it today when throwing Bocci a piece of popcorn. Of course, Bocci caught it mid air like a true pro, but not Bailey. She would have done this counterclockwise circle thing with her head and missed completely. Love her!
Monday, August 23, 2010
10 Months....
I'm in NYC for work....it's raining and in the low 70's - a nice break from the AZ heat. The past 10 months have gone by quickly - not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. They say time heals all wounds...I disagree - who the heck is "they" anyway? I'm quite certain that my wounds will never go away.
On an upbeat note, I am thankful for the enjoyment I get from Bocci and Basil. Bocci amazes me - she will be 13 in a few weeks and is looking fabulous. She has become quite active the past month - likely because Basil keeps bugging her to play. As for Basil, she is a complete hoot. I love that she looks similar to Bailey, yet has so many different quirks. We had a bad storm hit before I left for NY. Basil was on the bed with me and could not get close enough. She does this thing where she puts her face right next to mine. Cracks me up. I often wonder how she and Bailey would have played together.
Here is one of my favorite pictures of Bailey - taken by my dear friend, Marnie, (who is an awesome photographer) :) Funny/sad story about this picture. We were just at the Vet with Basil the other day and I looked up to see this picture on the Vet's bulletin board. We sent it to the Vet when Bailey passed as a thank you. It's comforting to know that she is still "with" us where ever we go.
I miss you Bailey girl!!!
On an upbeat note, I am thankful for the enjoyment I get from Bocci and Basil. Bocci amazes me - she will be 13 in a few weeks and is looking fabulous. She has become quite active the past month - likely because Basil keeps bugging her to play. As for Basil, she is a complete hoot. I love that she looks similar to Bailey, yet has so many different quirks. We had a bad storm hit before I left for NY. Basil was on the bed with me and could not get close enough. She does this thing where she puts her face right next to mine. Cracks me up. I often wonder how she and Bailey would have played together.
Here is one of my favorite pictures of Bailey - taken by my dear friend, Marnie, (who is an awesome photographer) :) Funny/sad story about this picture. We were just at the Vet with Basil the other day and I looked up to see this picture on the Vet's bulletin board. We sent it to the Vet when Bailey passed as a thank you. It's comforting to know that she is still "with" us where ever we go.
I miss you Bailey girl!!!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Trying Week...
Bailey would have been 11 years old yesterday....Friday marks 9 months since she passed...and Sunday is the 1 year anniversary of her spleen erupting and learning of her cancer.
I watched a bunch of her videos last night which brought a mixture of tears and smiles. I miss her like crazy. I miss her soft fur, show times, the little white dot on her ear, her silly eyebrow movements....
I found a video that made me laugh so will call it a night with the vision of Bailey destroying her pink baby.
I watched a bunch of her videos last night which brought a mixture of tears and smiles. I miss her like crazy. I miss her soft fur, show times, the little white dot on her ear, her silly eyebrow movements....
I found a video that made me laugh so will call it a night with the vision of Bailey destroying her pink baby.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Month Eight
I miss Bailey's quirks - she had so many funny, little habits that made me laugh every day.
Baileyism
Bailey had to be the center of attention - always. Here is a picture of her pouting (literally) because Bocci went with me for a drive while Bailey was stuck at home. Little did Bailey know, Bocci was going to the vet for a check up. I swear, Bailey wouldn't make eye contact with me for over an hour and only AFTER I tried sucking up with cuddles and treats. Miss you B - miss you every single day.
Baileyism
Bailey had to be the center of attention - always. Here is a picture of her pouting (literally) because Bocci went with me for a drive while Bailey was stuck at home. Little did Bailey know, Bocci was going to the vet for a check up. I swear, Bailey wouldn't make eye contact with me for over an hour and only AFTER I tried sucking up with cuddles and treats. Miss you B - miss you every single day.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Another month
Tomorrow marks 7. I had a "conversation" with Bailey last night. Told her I was sad as my memories are fading. It used to be that I could see her face when I closed my eyes - now the images are gone and I need to look at pictures or videos. Very sad.
I thank God for Bocci and Basil. Bocci is chugging along and doing fantastic. The ol' girl will be 13 in September, but is healthier now than years past thanks to her thyroid medicine. And Basil - she SO reminds me of Bailey. Similar mannerisms, similar facial structure. There are times I look at her and swear she is a light-colored Bailey.
A few days after Bailey's passing, I called one of those pet psychics. Yeah, I know - super cheesy. But I was hurting so bad and needed something to grab onto. The psychic, Barbara, was recommended by the cancer vet so I thought there may be some validity to her story. Here are my notes from the call - many in shorthand that likely only make sense to me, but I've highlighted a few that seem to stand out.
Very sick – in abdomen and discomfort between liver
Difficult breathing in the end - Pretty uncomfortable - Getting toxic
Would not of had that decision if we waited much longer
Thank you for letting her go – says that her body got sick
Will be back soon
Lifetime bond – wasn’t a dog – stronger than a guardian – maybe human before – her soul keeps coming back
Big change in two – not sure if that meant two months or two years
She won’t be gone long – look in puppy's eyes
It will be a walk in situation – souls can exchange from one to another while waiting to find their "home"
She doesn’t want to stay away long
Very goofy
She has been sick a while - Illness may have started over a year ago
She has a tennis ball in her mouth – pain is gone – legs near the end
She loves us both very much –
Remembers going for runs – walked in the forest
Talked about being part of the marriage ceremony
She liked water
She was pampered - Felt like royalty
Toys - Red with a tail/fuzzy
Before we took her to the vet – she heard you and understood – took it to heart – she will bring some part of her when she comes back that we will recognize
She understood every word – she could feel every feeling
She thinks we are brave
Many differences between her and Bocci – lying near her – she's trying to comfort Bocci
Something about having head on the pillow
She liked to pick on Bocci - teasing
Keep an eye on Bocci
May see her by the first year
Eyes
A good friend of mine, who will always be nameless, talks of her ability to communicate with beings that have passed and/or on their way to passing. I trust her completely as she is not a BS'er. At the same time, I don't know where I stand. Sometimes I believe in reincarnation, others times I think there is no way. My point - if ever there was a chance in reincarnation, then I would feel strongly that Bailey and Basil are one. If not the same soul, than "sisters" for sure as they remind me so much of one another. The red notes above from my reading somewhat "back up" the notion that Bailey could be laying at my feet right now - giving my ankle a bath...only this time, she is much lighter in color and her name is Basil. Who knows, maybe all of this babble is only to make myself feel better. Bailey and I were so close, that if she were permanently gone (as in an angel and not coming back), I would think I would feel her presence by now...
Would love to hear your thoughts - do you believe in angels, reincarnation or something else? In the meantime, raise a toast to Bailey. Wherever she may be...she will always be my girl.
I thank God for Bocci and Basil. Bocci is chugging along and doing fantastic. The ol' girl will be 13 in September, but is healthier now than years past thanks to her thyroid medicine. And Basil - she SO reminds me of Bailey. Similar mannerisms, similar facial structure. There are times I look at her and swear she is a light-colored Bailey.
A few days after Bailey's passing, I called one of those pet psychics. Yeah, I know - super cheesy. But I was hurting so bad and needed something to grab onto. The psychic, Barbara, was recommended by the cancer vet so I thought there may be some validity to her story. Here are my notes from the call - many in shorthand that likely only make sense to me, but I've highlighted a few that seem to stand out.
Very sick – in abdomen and discomfort between liver
Difficult breathing in the end - Pretty uncomfortable - Getting toxic
Would not of had that decision if we waited much longer
Thank you for letting her go – says that her body got sick
Will be back soon
Lifetime bond – wasn’t a dog – stronger than a guardian – maybe human before – her soul keeps coming back
Big change in two – not sure if that meant two months or two years
She won’t be gone long – look in puppy's eyes
It will be a walk in situation – souls can exchange from one to another while waiting to find their "home"
She doesn’t want to stay away long
Very goofy
She has been sick a while - Illness may have started over a year ago
She has a tennis ball in her mouth – pain is gone – legs near the end
She loves us both very much –
Remembers going for runs – walked in the forest
Talked about being part of the marriage ceremony
She liked water
She was pampered - Felt like royalty
Toys - Red with a tail/fuzzy
Before we took her to the vet – she heard you and understood – took it to heart – she will bring some part of her when she comes back that we will recognize
She understood every word – she could feel every feeling
She thinks we are brave
Many differences between her and Bocci – lying near her – she's trying to comfort Bocci
Something about having head on the pillow
She liked to pick on Bocci - teasing
Keep an eye on Bocci
May see her by the first year
Eyes
A good friend of mine, who will always be nameless, talks of her ability to communicate with beings that have passed and/or on their way to passing. I trust her completely as she is not a BS'er. At the same time, I don't know where I stand. Sometimes I believe in reincarnation, others times I think there is no way. My point - if ever there was a chance in reincarnation, then I would feel strongly that Bailey and Basil are one. If not the same soul, than "sisters" for sure as they remind me so much of one another. The red notes above from my reading somewhat "back up" the notion that Bailey could be laying at my feet right now - giving my ankle a bath...only this time, she is much lighter in color and her name is Basil. Who knows, maybe all of this babble is only to make myself feel better. Bailey and I were so close, that if she were permanently gone (as in an angel and not coming back), I would think I would feel her presence by now...
Would love to hear your thoughts - do you believe in angels, reincarnation or something else? In the meantime, raise a toast to Bailey. Wherever she may be...she will always be my girl.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Six months
Just doesn't seem real....
I'm starting to look at urns for Bailey's ashes - so many to choose from. Several sites also provide jewelry where bits of ash can be stored inside via a tiny funnel. Decisions, decisions.
Story time
A strange thing happened on Tuesday. I took Basil for a hike up Bailey's favorite trail where I have her memorial perched by a big rock overlooking the valley. Bailey's "spot" is a bit off the trail and hidden from the typical hiker. Since it's rattlesnake season, I decided to wave Bailey's memorial hello versus going off trail in fear I would run into one of the slippery creatures. Just as we passed Bailey's spot, Basil stopped dead in her tracks and began smelling a big rock that was partially buried in the middle of the trail. Her tail instantly went between her legs and she started to shake. She looked a me with sheer fright and came running my direction....there was no way she was going past that rock. Important note - Basil typically has no fright - she is a tough cookie and very protective.My gut tells me that a rattle snake was likely sunning on the rock earlier in the day and that Basil picked up the scent. She did go through one session of snake training a few weeks ago and has a follow up session tomorrow. While her reaction could have easily been from what she learned a few weeks ago, my "physical" response was incredibly odd. When this all happened, my entire body filled with goosebumps - face, arms, legs...I was covered. I just had this "sense" that there was more to it - that Bailey was there and warning us not to go forward. Perhaps it is a coincidence, but my gut tells me Bailey was there....
Picture of Basil on the hike - love the yellow flowers!
Picture of thirsty Bailey after hiking the same trail:
I'm starting to look at urns for Bailey's ashes - so many to choose from. Several sites also provide jewelry where bits of ash can be stored inside via a tiny funnel. Decisions, decisions.
Story time
A strange thing happened on Tuesday. I took Basil for a hike up Bailey's favorite trail where I have her memorial perched by a big rock overlooking the valley. Bailey's "spot" is a bit off the trail and hidden from the typical hiker. Since it's rattlesnake season, I decided to wave Bailey's memorial hello versus going off trail in fear I would run into one of the slippery creatures. Just as we passed Bailey's spot, Basil stopped dead in her tracks and began smelling a big rock that was partially buried in the middle of the trail. Her tail instantly went between her legs and she started to shake. She looked a me with sheer fright and came running my direction....there was no way she was going past that rock. Important note - Basil typically has no fright - she is a tough cookie and very protective.My gut tells me that a rattle snake was likely sunning on the rock earlier in the day and that Basil picked up the scent. She did go through one session of snake training a few weeks ago and has a follow up session tomorrow. While her reaction could have easily been from what she learned a few weeks ago, my "physical" response was incredibly odd. When this all happened, my entire body filled with goosebumps - face, arms, legs...I was covered. I just had this "sense" that there was more to it - that Bailey was there and warning us not to go forward. Perhaps it is a coincidence, but my gut tells me Bailey was there....
Picture of Basil on the hike - love the yellow flowers!
Picture of thirsty Bailey after hiking the same trail:
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
A Picture Says 1000 Words
As silly as this may sound, I'm not sure whether to cry or smile at the below picture. It was snapped today in my office...I turned to find Basil snuggled up on Bailey's bed which has been laying empty for 4 months and 15 days.
Basil and I are off for a hike now - we'll be sure to stop by Bailey's memorial to say hello....if only she were here to hike with us.
Basil and I are off for a hike now - we'll be sure to stop by Bailey's memorial to say hello....if only she were here to hike with us.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Survey says....
I found the below on Pawnation - interesting stuff:
89 percent say their pooches are more excited to greet them when they come home than their significant others
89 percent believe there have been moments when their dogs tried to comfort them in times of need
74 percent think their dog's body language or facial expressions let them know how their pet is feeling
72 percent prefer to blow off steam by taking a walk with their dogs than with a close companion
70 percent believe they have "shared a look" with their dogs on at least one occasion
69 percent believe their pooches know when they are feeling happy
67 percent believe their pups sense anger
67 percent confess that when they travel, they're more likely to feel guilty about leaving their dogs behind than family and friends
62 percent believe that their dogs are more dependable than their human best friends
58 percent think their dogs know when they're sad
41 percent say that their furry friend is more likely to "notice" they've had a bad day than their best human friend
34 percent report that at least once, they've had an entire "conversation" with their dogs without saying a word
9 percent say they know exactly what their pooch is thinking
89 percent say their pooches are more excited to greet them when they come home than their significant others
89 percent believe there have been moments when their dogs tried to comfort them in times of need
74 percent think their dog's body language or facial expressions let them know how their pet is feeling
72 percent prefer to blow off steam by taking a walk with their dogs than with a close companion
70 percent believe they have "shared a look" with their dogs on at least one occasion
69 percent believe their pooches know when they are feeling happy
67 percent believe their pups sense anger
67 percent confess that when they travel, they're more likely to feel guilty about leaving their dogs behind than family and friends
62 percent believe that their dogs are more dependable than their human best friends
58 percent think their dogs know when they're sad
41 percent say that their furry friend is more likely to "notice" they've had a bad day than their best human friend
34 percent report that at least once, they've had an entire "conversation" with their dogs without saying a word
9 percent say they know exactly what their pooch is thinking
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Five Months
Time is flying by like crazy. It seems like just yesterday we took the long drive to Wilcox with Bailey to pick out Basil. I'm thankful the two of them had a chance to meet - especially since they come from the same gene pool. Bailey's sister from a younger litter is Basil's mom.
Basil is absolutely huge - she turned 6 months last week and already weighs 48 pounds. She stands taller than Bocci and has the paws of a bear. Knocking on wood as I type this, but Basil is a really good pup. She minds well and has only destroyed one minor thing - a computer mouse. She is a complete watch dog which is far different from Bocci and Bailey who rarely let out a bark. I keep calling Basil my "Tom-Dog" - last week she alerted us to a mouse in the house and over the weekend, she found a rattle snake in the back yard. (hmmmm - maybe I need to rethink this house)
I have to admit, I had a really, really hard time when we first brought Basil home. The passing of Bailey was so fresh and emotionally I wasn't ready to start loving another pup. Had we not planned on Basil long before Bailey got sick, I would have waited longer to pick out another pup. With Basil being from the same family as Bailey, it seemed like the right thing to do and now I wouldn't have it any other way. Every once in awhile, Basil will do certain things that remind us of Bailey. Last night, she was doing "showtime" on the bed - growl included.
I miss my Bailey girl like crazy and pray I will get the chance to be with her again some day.
Here is a picture from the day that Bailey and Basil met.
Basil is absolutely huge - she turned 6 months last week and already weighs 48 pounds. She stands taller than Bocci and has the paws of a bear. Knocking on wood as I type this, but Basil is a really good pup. She minds well and has only destroyed one minor thing - a computer mouse. She is a complete watch dog which is far different from Bocci and Bailey who rarely let out a bark. I keep calling Basil my "Tom-Dog" - last week she alerted us to a mouse in the house and over the weekend, she found a rattle snake in the back yard. (hmmmm - maybe I need to rethink this house)
I have to admit, I had a really, really hard time when we first brought Basil home. The passing of Bailey was so fresh and emotionally I wasn't ready to start loving another pup. Had we not planned on Basil long before Bailey got sick, I would have waited longer to pick out another pup. With Basil being from the same family as Bailey, it seemed like the right thing to do and now I wouldn't have it any other way. Every once in awhile, Basil will do certain things that remind us of Bailey. Last night, she was doing "showtime" on the bed - growl included.
I miss my Bailey girl like crazy and pray I will get the chance to be with her again some day.
Here is a picture from the day that Bailey and Basil met.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Four Months
It's hard to believe it's been 4 months. I miss my sweet Bailey girl as much today as I did the moment we said goodbye. I saw rainbows on both Saturday and Sunday and I tell myself that it's Bailey's way of saying hello.
I often wonder what Bocci thinks....does she remember Bailey? Does she (or any pup for that matter) have the ability to miss someone or something after several months? I suppose we'll never know for sure, but I'd like to think that Bocci has fond memories of her sister.
A note on Bocci - I am so excited about her health. It wasn't long ago that we thought we were going to lose her. Along with other issues, she had a Pancreatitis and went almost two weeks without eating a thing. She has been on thyroid medicine for three months and has lost several pounds. Her coat is soft again and her energy level has increased greatly - you would never know she is a 12 1/2 year old pup.
Here is a picture of the girls playing together back in 2007.
I miss you Bailey - I miss everything about you.
I often wonder what Bocci thinks....does she remember Bailey? Does she (or any pup for that matter) have the ability to miss someone or something after several months? I suppose we'll never know for sure, but I'd like to think that Bocci has fond memories of her sister.
A note on Bocci - I am so excited about her health. It wasn't long ago that we thought we were going to lose her. Along with other issues, she had a Pancreatitis and went almost two weeks without eating a thing. She has been on thyroid medicine for three months and has lost several pounds. Her coat is soft again and her energy level has increased greatly - you would never know she is a 12 1/2 year old pup.
Here is a picture of the girls playing together back in 2007.
I miss you Bailey - I miss everything about you.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Bitter Sweet Move
The past few weeks have been bitter sweet for me. We finally finished our new home - a three year project since the time we purchased the land. We've got most of the boxes unpacked and are settling into our routine - but something is missing. Bailey should be here - running through the house, jumping in the pool and rolling in the grass. She was such a big part of the construction and was here with me almost daily as the house was going up. She would love it - the views are amazing and there are loads of hiking trails right outside our door. The neighbors have two friendly dogs and I know Bailey and Lexy would hit it off immediately. 
I suppose I'm extra sad as I had a dream about Bailey last night - the first in a long, long time. I wish it was the kind of dream where you wake up and wonder, "was that real" - but it wasn't. I woke with an empty feeling as I was trying to protect her from falling off a ledge.
Moving from the rental was also an odd feeling - at least there, I could sit next to Bailey's favorite spots and feel a bit close to her.
Here is a picture of Bailey at the new house - it was her last visit - I'm so glad she had a beautiful sunset to enjoy.
I suppose I'm extra sad as I had a dream about Bailey last night - the first in a long, long time. I wish it was the kind of dream where you wake up and wonder, "was that real" - but it wasn't. I woke with an empty feeling as I was trying to protect her from falling off a ledge.
Moving from the rental was also an odd feeling - at least there, I could sit next to Bailey's favorite spots and feel a bit close to her.
Here is a picture of Bailey at the new house - it was her last visit - I'm so glad she had a beautiful sunset to enjoy.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Three Months
Today marks three months, yet it seems like a million years. I miss my beautiful Bailey Girl - I miss her smile, I miss her fur, I miss her silliness, I miss everything about her.
Wishes
We wish we could have told you,
in words you'd understand,
We wanted you to stay with us.
This wasn't what we'd planned.
We wish somehow to tell you,
How empty we now feel.
A part of us went with you,
A part that time can't heal.
We wish we'd once more hear you,
in your softly, rumbling purr,
to hold you on our laps again
and stroke your golden fur.
We wish we had you back again,
to fill this empty space.
But one day we'll be together
in a far, far better place.
Author - Unknown
Photo - Crescendo Photography
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